Really? What is the shame here? The pretty face or what’s attached to that pretty face? Am I a monster of sorts? What’s wrong? They say that what you see is just the cover and one must look inside to know,understand  and love what’s inside! From such a very tender young age I would wrap myself around my dads leg,especially when meeting people ….I wanted to hide.Now tell me where do these feelings come from? We all know what peoples words could do to us dont we? As the old story goes….ten people could tell us how wonderful we look and then that one person comes along and says something like ” gee’s your looking tired today” Now come on……you all know that’s the comment that ruins the day,that sits heavy! Wow,what an impact others have on us.I am working hard at choosing my words as I could be explosive at times especially when those around you deeply hurt you.So think before you speak…..really,really if it’s not nice just bite your tongue.It’s a slow process but best to be aware then not try at all.So growing up I heard this way too often.Does it shock me and many others out there that we don’t feel accepted today in society because we’re not that perfect body walking around.Ya know that perfect body that should be attached to that ” pretty” face.Even today with all I have learned I still find myself looking around the cafe, pub,restaurant ……looking at all the slim people around wondering what their story is.We all have one no doubt.I go to the weight issue of course…if their overweight I have an urge to talk with them and if their not I feel how very lucky they are not to have this one problem that has consumed me all of my life.I then remind my warped self that I have no idea of their story….most have issues with food….who knows what their battling with? My eyes see slender so it’s a given that they do not deal with this dreadful challenge of food.Chances are they could be suffering one of many  food issues.Sadly in my head they’re not FAT so they win!! Even in my adulthood I have been told just recently how critical a few of my friends spouses have been in general and I have been mentioned in that pool of criticism …..yes she should lose weight but she has such a pretty face! OMG…brought me right back…..to years ago.The difference now is that I am me and those that know me get me….My weight will most likely yoyo until I die.Those that criticize should take a peek in their own mirrors.