We often block times,events and people that have hurt us.Moving was painful and as I sit to write I find myself feeling very unsure of the events,the order of them and the time.The fortunate part is that I could always come back and change it up.Looking back I often feel like it wasn’t really my life it was someone elses.Maybe a common thing for many of us as we look back and cannot believe that all these years have passed us by and some of the events and people that have passed through.I have a very active mind that has trouble to rest.Apparently it’s even on full speed during the quiet hours of the night when we should all be sleeping soundly.The doors are always wide open sorting,planning,thinking,solving,worrying,wondering about people and their actions and questioning them and then myself.It is exhausting…..it’s all being worked on though which is the good news.Its never too late….until it’s too late! I remember the big stunning wooden double doors that were so inviting and took my breath away at the age of 11 ( maybe11?)….trying desperately to figure out the time line.As you entered in this house my first memory was that it was heaven……just a beautiful house.The problem was that it was never a home….and that the size,value and decor really had nothing to do with making any of us happy.To prove this is the times we each spent in this house and the unhappiness we each experienced.I was again reaching out for the food trying to find comfort and searching for an escape from my sadness,lonliness,fear and unhappiness….my mom escaped to our counrty home where her glass filled with a dark coloured liquid and ice cubes constantly clattering together had become her best friend and my dad,well sadly he was off finding interest in very young numbers….lets say 21 at the time.My sister was going through her hell that she later came out to share in her book “With All My Heart”..all to say your house must become your home…it’s the happiness that is created inside that makes it yours and that so makes it your home! Safe,warm,peaceful,relaxing…..home sweet home.