So, I was asked when I would get happier in my blogs…..it’s coming.For now this is what my memory serves me so this is what I share.The raw truth.Many guests,dinners and lots of company as always.Funny enough I remember my mom lying on the couch in the sunken family room off to the back of the house with the fire roaring and the tv on…..probably watching The Lawrence Welk Show, Carol Burnett or The Pig and Whistle…those were the days right? She would ask me all the time to please rub her feet….and well need I say  more? Maybe, just maybe that’s why I crave a home with a sunken den and I chose to help people feel better through touching their feet! Our minds work in mysterious ways.I feel today that through my work in touching people and the invitation this welcomes to share their thoughts and their lives with me as they do I always have a little angel of luck sitting on my shoulder….sure hope so ! So,a memory I must share that has always stayed  with me.My mom was up north escaping from her life in town and the hurt.She loved it up north and chose to end her last living days there until forced by the Dr himself to come to town and enter the hospital.It was sad and I have always wondered where my little siss was through this and just recently she shared that she was there all alone with our sick mom….Well, where was I ?  Why was I not with her ? Why? I just don’t remember….it’s very painful to write all of this but I have the desire so here I am.I also know that deep in my heart that this will bring me closer to my little siss. It helps us understand how this has effected us and caused so much pain.My cousin was in from New Jersey that summer which made me so happy.We decided to come into town for something and when we got to the house there was someone there….Apparently my dad told my cousin Doreen, named after my mom,that it was the housekeeper and not to worry! I was mortified ,she was wearing a negligee and had curlers in her hair. I only put all of the pieces together afterwards.Probably after he secretly married her the month after mom passed and didn’t want my sister or myself to know…..that’s the next chapter…..stay tuned!