Food has always played an important part of the planning…..for many of us I have no doubt.Especially at this time of year when most often we look forward to special treats that stay hidden from our minds until that gate opens and the race begins….and all of our favorite treats come dancing through….Well,for some after the holidays pass normal life returns until the next special occasion and so on…..however sadly for many others this could be disastrous.Why you may ask? It’s simple,we have given ourselves permission,thought of every excuse in the book and despite our clothes getting extremely uncomfortable we pacify ourselves with saying” it’s okay it’s the holidays! “This holiday habits dies hard for many…..Christmas secretly continues in our lives as others get back to the gym and begin to eat healthy.My life was like this for awhile and then like a light switch was turned off it  just disappeared.The discipline,the will and the strength to get back on track.Let me share with anyone reading my blog that there is no better feeling than feeling healthy,loving the reflection in the mirror and having your clothes fit you nicely and not timidly show every bulge off and choke every inch of you.You could actually open your closet and choose what you want to wear not have no choice and grab whatever may look acceptable let alone fit.Arghhhhhh….not fun one little bit.So when does one stop repeating this ugly pattern? An old friend of mine once said to me that although he never suffered with a weight issue he just didn’t get it…you want to lose weight than just stop eating! After spending many years hanging out with me and watching me go through what I do go through he one day said…”.well maybe it’s just not that simple,I’ve never been there so I shouldn’t say anything”.Right on! It’s easy to say “Just do it ” when it’s not your cross to bear! .We become what we think so let us all be gentle with ourselves as our feelings and thoughts of ourselves do become our reality….and we all know that amazing feeling of being in control and remembering  that food is our friend and not our enemy…a little giggle ..Christmas Eve we were all yanking at our firecrackers making noise and having fun when appeared out of mine was a measutring tape! Enough said !

The holidays are here….the special recipes come out of hiding,the goodies are hiding in tins, our favorite treats come out and show themselves off on our tabletops….countertops…..screaming our names…yum yum yum….it’s that glorious time where the diet and all thoughts of a food plan get tossed out the window.Oh I could bet my very last shortbread  cookie that more than half of us are promising ourselves that come January  we shall let the one of thousand diet plans begin……Yes you’re all agreeing aren’t you? Well….a little peak into my holiday mood this year..please c’mon in! My holiday outfits have shrunk,yes I said shrunk…how could this be possible? Last year they were feeling and looking oh so lovely on me.Well….that’s life in the land of the battle of the scale and the mind.Oh my scale has found a very snug corner in the washroom and it’s pouting….I almost feel it glaring at me.Thats okay too because very soon my feet will be slowly stepping back on gasping from the information that will flash at me……I will then move the scale to another place in the room and try again…..arghhhhhh…NO not those numbers again….the darn numbers I swore would never visit my scale ever,ever,ever again….bastards are back! And so the process begins…..the battle,the promises that we have made time and time again…..c’mon folks you know it,right? By the way who needs a scale…we all have a mirror or two in our homes and well the outfit that barely squeaks on is a sure indication that the scale hasn’t dropped….Well here  I go….I am surrendering to this otherwise what’s the purpose…..we are who we are.We all have our battles! My promise to me is to think health and not be so obsessed with those numbers and that mirror that I always pray is distorted.I am healthy other than my weight and reaching a certain age this is a true blessing….I don’t want to take this for granted so yes in the near future the plan will be to stay heathy and bet my last cookie  that the scale will drop with new hope and the right attitude! Let you not feel alone,any of you out there reading this.We are  where we are and we cannot change this so let us all be grateful and know there is hope tomorrow.Wishing you all a guilt free and wonderful peaceful holiday.From all of me ❤️ Stay tuned….

Every thought has to do with food….okay, well maybe not every thought but darn close.I’m thinking that food must be the very hardest battle, as one must eat….being an ex smoker I must say that was easy compared to this battle.Once you get over it and realize that under any given circumstance you must not even touch one you’re recovering…succeeding.Food…..glorious food….the four letter word that has taken my life away from me..really I must say that it has.I have no doubt that many of you reading this will get me and some may think I’m crazy.It’s all good because I am being real, honest and sharing my darkest moments…and many more to come.Why? Some have said they hope it helps me….well it is for many reasons.As I write I pray  that the right eyes are reading my words.The pain that obesity brings on is beyond belief.Some march forward and smile but truthfully they are terribly sad inside.I speak to many people that are just at the end of their rope….or at the end of the scale…..yes they cannot even weigh themselves on a normal scale….the numbers don’t go high enough.Speaking for myself….and tears flowing as I share this the years have been hard,painful and exhausting.My battle never ends…the scale has been celebrated and also thrown across the floor.When does this end? What happens in our minds….where is that switch that goes from having such discipline and control to not even being able to find the switch at all…the actual thought of flicking it on is beyond belief.How I am feeling is the path to everything I do..how I react…how I plan…..you see it does control me.Now that I am more mature I do put on my happy face and do what I have to do but trust me it’s not always so easy.If I listened to my ugly negative thoughts the outcome wouldn’t be very nice.So today’s blog is dedicated to all those that are hating themselves because of what the mirror shows them…but truly this is just a cover a blanket and what’s inside of the wrapping is what so matters…most of us are so emotional and sensitive that this is the outcome…we hurt we eat….we’re happy we eat…we’re sad we eat…..it’s emotional so emotional…..so please know that those that do judge should most likely be looking in their mirrors…we shall do this together.❤️ I’ll be back ….