Every thought has to do with food….okay, well maybe not every thought but darn close.I’m thinking that food must be the very hardest battle, as one must eat….being an ex smoker I must say that was easy compared to this battle.Once you get over it and realize that under any given circumstance you must not even touch one you’re recovering…succeeding.Food…..glorious food….the four letter word that has taken my life away from me..really I must say that it has.I have no doubt that many of you reading this will get me and some may think I’m crazy.It’s all good because I am being real, honest and sharing my darkest moments…and many more to come.Why? Some have said they hope it helps me….well it is for many reasons.As I write I pray  that the right eyes are reading my words.The pain that obesity brings on is beyond belief.Some march forward and smile but truthfully they are terribly sad inside.I speak to many people that are just at the end of their rope….or at the end of the scale…..yes they cannot even weigh themselves on a normal scale….the numbers don’t go high enough.Speaking for myself….and tears flowing as I share this the years have been hard,painful and exhausting.My battle never ends…the scale has been celebrated and also thrown across the floor.When does this end? What happens in our minds….where is that switch that goes from having such discipline and control to not even being able to find the switch at all…the actual thought of flicking it on is beyond belief.How I am feeling is the path to everything I do..how I react…how I plan…..you see it does control me.Now that I am more mature I do put on my happy face and do what I have to do but trust me it’s not always so easy.If I listened to my ugly negative thoughts the outcome wouldn’t be very nice.So today’s blog is dedicated to all those that are hating themselves because of what the mirror shows them…but truly this is just a cover a blanket and what’s inside of the wrapping is what so matters…most of us are so emotional and sensitive that this is the outcome…we hurt we eat….we’re happy we eat…we’re sad we eat…..it’s emotional so emotional…..so please know that those that do judge should most likely be looking in their mirrors…we shall do this together.❤️ I’ll be back ….