As  busy days pass  huge pockets of thoughts enter my mind like clouds filled with memories to share with you…..a friend asked if I jot down these ideas as they visit my busy,busy mind..my answer was no,not at all necessary as this is my life……everything is stored on my cloud!

So I’m guessing food was always something that was my security .Let’s  be honest with ourselves, well those that get this,the food was there,I could chose it ,smell it,plan it…I was the boss.More often than not I spent a lot of hours planning a pig out whether it was that day or in a week….food was the highlight.It wouldn’t disappoint me and not show up .Mind you I do remember a time in Fort Lauderdale,Florida being crushed because there were no more apple fritters left at my fave drop in drive through….ARGHHHHH…..NO! I had been dreaming of them all day long…..So my plan of action was to get up at 6 am and get there when they were plentiful and toasty warm….my partner in crime at the time could confirm this.Geez, I hope she gets to reading this one day…it’s been years.You could already feel the love and passion I have for food I do hope? Well,I must say old  habits die hard…I think of these days with a smile and a tear..back then it was all fun and games not to realize the path it was paving for me for the rest of my days….now I think about it and could honestly say there’s no more running…I have grown up length and width wise…ha..a little humour folks…at 56 I could say I am and have been out of the food closet for a very long time….

Hey,hold on now…I’m not sharing that I don’t have my moments,days where I could share that I haven’t stood and ate 5 maybe 6 cookies ( merci to my cookie visitor this week) and felt like I just couldn’t stop…….c’ mon guys I am an addict remember.The question is what in heavens name makes one be so strong,controlled and disciplined and then like a new brain has taken over all that great will desire and strength has vanished..I am slowly understanding why and you will get it as you read my journey.Thank you to each and everyone of you for tuning in and taking a few moments to read my blog,MY SCALE OF LIFE – Wait I’m happy,weight I’m not.I have wanted to write ever since I was potty trained I think….it will be quite the ride and I am so looking forward to sharing my story…a story that will make you get a glimpse into a heart that would never hurt and is working on healing.

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