A very emotional week has passed and as if struck by lightening I was totally aware of the moment it happened and my reaction.I received a phone call that triggered many emotions inside of me.I had actually just pulled up at a gas station .As I sat in the car and the conversation ended I had already decided that a chocolate bar was in order! Yap,I would  pay inside and buy the yummiest of bars…..and nibble at it on the way to seeing my client.The little voice was there no doubt asking me so many questions.Really, buy  a bar here? Probably not so fresh,a tad stale even……wait until you really want something better and you could enjoy it.Cathy,you said you wouldn’t eat this crap anymore..you will not even enjoy it.You will stuff  it in your mouth and hope that it doesn’t go all over the car and wipe your face silly because you don’t want to show up with smears of chocolate everywhere….it’s just ridiculous.Are you hungry? Exhausting …yes,very exhausting.Did I buy it? Take a guess ..go on.As I hopped out of the car a friend pulled up beside me and talked my ear off,a very pleasant surprise mind you.As I pumped the fuel we yapped away…..While I pondered what bar I would  buy.All done…time to pay and make that big decision ….ya’ think? He walked right in with me and continued to talk up a mean streak……he saved my day! This bar could have been the open invitation to so many other treats to follow that day…I never know if it will end there or continue. We had had many discussions about nutrition etc in the past and knowing him he would have asked why I wanted it..so I spared  myself the lecture and as I share this story with you the tears stream down my cheeks..because I don’t know why???? When all I want is to be normal.I have faith that the time will once again be here.I pray and have faith and continue my journey.I share this as it is a part of my story,my life, my battle and it all makes me who I am.So many people share their food stories with me and as they read my blog they cry and nod their heads because they so get it and others shake their heads not understanding it one bit……hopefully this will help people to not judge those that don’t have the perfect shape or body as we are way more than what you will ever see.